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all of a sudden.im at a loss for words.there are so many things to say.so many things i wanna tell all of you about.but.i dont know how.it's been crazy.an absolutely crazy week for me.yup.some of you most probably know why.

monday tuesday wednesday thurday friday all passed in such a flash.i've been awakened.we're that close to the end.and no i'm not referring to the start of the O's but rather the end of it all.yup.all that we've ever been studying for.all that our future depends on (for the time being) is finally coming to an end.well well.what can i say.the past 4 years have passed so very fast.they've opened my eyes to what i never knew existed.they've showed me life was more than what i thought it to be.they've made me who i am today.

i love reflecting.it makes me see who i really am.behind the mirage of someone's who's ever so confident.someone who never needs to worry about what others think of her.someone who everyone thinks can pull off some big thing.ha!you're all wrong.i act well.or rather.the past 4 years have caused this mirage to blend into me.it is me now isnt it.

so anw.ill tell you what happened this week pretty briefly.thurday after physics prac.brenn yingwah and i decided to make good use of our new urban male gift vouchers.so since i was gonna have tuition later that night, i decided i might as well go home and bathe first then meet them later.and i did just that.we went to citylink and before we went, brenn and yingwah started feeling scared already.cos we all know people at the citylink new urban males are kinda intimidating.hehhh.yup.in the end the bags werent really really nice and we realised 50 bucks would only allow us to buy 1/3 of a bag.so we actually made a wasted trip.after that we went to raffles city to look at brenn's wallet.she really wanted to buy it but she remembered xianglin saying that we should all shop after the O's instead so she put it down.lol.

and we headed to bugis to buy bags.well brenn's at least.i totally love her bag alright.it's like pretty.and it's big.i want!!but then they said it looked too big on me.so yup.no bag for me.boooo.i like~~hehhh.

today i went for chua.last lesson already.time really flies.like really really fast.we had fries again.yay.i love banana cake.lalala.ohhh and after class as we were going down in the lift.jun wei started fighting with chuon yan for no reason.both of them were too high i think.lol.then chuon yan's aerated water suddenly sprayed out.i got wet too.lol.ohh wells.we were trying to have some unforgettable memories i suppose.lol.

so that's been my brief week.i've had some really special moments.and i hope you've had yours too.most importantly i wish you'll continue to have special moments and stay special darlings.

toodles~

muacks!

`mandalovesyou

i'd rather be in school

yup.your eyes are not lying to you.i would seriously prefer having normal school day lessons over staying at home to do our so-called self-study.basically,studying at home is just a own time own target sorta thingy but let's face it.all of us have weird timings and weird targets.

sometimes we plan to finish studying within 5 hours.HOWEVER.in the midst of it,we feel warm and decide to bathe.we feel hungry and decide to go grab a bite.we feel tired and decide to go take a nap.yup.sounds familiar doesnt it.well if it doesnt then at least you know it happens to me.i hate staying at home.staying at home makes me sad.it makes me perspire.it makes me hungry.it makes me fat.it makes me pimpled.it makes me lazy.it makes me unproductive.it makes me think a lot.it makes me low.it makes me look forward to the end of O levels more.lol.guess that sums it up.

hmmm.my week sounds bad doesnt it.lol.actually.it wasnt all that bad.hehhh.i got to go out everyday.sunday,monday,tuesday,wednesday,thursday i went to bugis for tuition.friday i went to clementi to send my brother for tuition.in any case,you do realise i only leave the house for 1 reason-tuition!yay.for once i actually enjoy tuition cos it get me out of the house!hehhhh.i loooooooooooooove tuition man.i love studying too.somehow.it makes me feel smart cos there's someone out there who's like so smart i feel stupid.

i had fun at chua's today.it was like slack but tiring.dunno why.but im always contradicting myself.dont care.not like someone out there minds anyway.lol.he treated us to subway at china square.coolio right!so after we ordered our food we just sat around and chatted.sam,stef and sophia were at my table.guess what we were talking about.guys.seriously.lol.we were decided what guys to choose if you want someone with a hot bod.in conclusion.guys involved in water sports have the nicest bodies.yup.ohh while the 4 of us were like bimbo-ing,some mad man sorta like irritating junwei(from chua's) accidentally and being junwei you bet he was pissed.like really really pissed.yup.he shouted back at the mad man and almost wanted to fight.but if he were to fight the mad man he's sure to lose lah.come'on dude.he's a MAD MAN!he's protected by the law.you arent.so why even bother to get angry with him.you'll lose in the end lah.so that's the 'live' show between the mad man and the beng.lol.

after chua i met mummy nat and luke at raffles city for dinner.we wanted to go to New York New York for dinner but the queue was freakin' long.yup.so we headed back for Sushi Tei.the queue was freakin' long too.after that we just went down to the basement and had dinner at this small Japanese restaurant.the food was pretty good.especially the egg ramen.ohh man.super nice.hehhh.anyway ive always realised and shall declare now that I,cannot live without chickens.i love chicken rice,i love soy sauce chicken,i love eggs.yay!crown me Queen of Chickens!lol.sounds wrong.but who cares man.wheeee.

recently there have been so many people falling in love,getting outta love and what not.but.you do realise somehow recent relationships have been extremely complicated.like i like you.but you dont know i like you.boohoo.or you like me.i dont like you.go away.or i like you.you like me.but cannot be together.cos.ive got bad breath.lol.yeah.whatever.but ya.relatioships are no longer straightforward.you dont simply go for a matchmaking session one day and get married the week after or something.or the guy no longer chases the girl with a bunch of flowers till the lactic acid in his calves dissolves his muscles.lol.even when girls take the first step the guys might not even be touched.gone are the days where people fall in love cos it was love at first sight.ohh wells.all i can say is that if you really want that love a lot then go for it!leave your pride aside,leave convention to the rubbish bin,leave old conservative ideals to the museum.you cant wait for love to come knocking at your door anymore cos with so many people elsewhere,cupid's kinda busy you see.lol.good luck darlings!

ohhh.last piece of information.seriously.CUTE doesnt mean ugly but adorable.that's only what some warped singaporeans who were jealous of the REAL cute people came up with.let me show you what it really means.

1.attractive, esp. in a dainty way; pleasingly pretty

2.affectedly or mincingly pretty or clever; precious

3.mentally keen; clever; shrewd.

4.Informal. in a cute, charming, or amusing way; cutely: In this type of movie the boy and girl always meet cute.

5.the cutes, Informal. self-consciously cute mannerisms or appeal; affected coyness

yup.there you have it.not you know it's not longer an insult to be called cute. : D.

well that's all for my week.you guys mug hard and have fun too alright!

toodles~

muacks!

`mandalovesyou

i love you.

wow.i realised recently that actually there are many people in this world that i cannot live without.seriously.without them.
i wouldnt be me.
i wouldnt have what i have now.
i wouldnt know what love actually meant.
i wouldnt know life was actually simple.
i wouldnt know that actually life doesnt suck at all.
hehhh.

i feel so emo.like john.lol.actually.when you reflect about your life,the love you've received and all the people that have played a part in it,it should be a no-tear affair.dont you think?it should be a celebration!wheeee.hehhh.thank every single person that has appeared in your life.thank even those that havent been nice to you because they are the ones that have made you a nicer,stronger person.
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so anyway.the past few days have been pretty cool.ive been doing so so much.but now.im so lazy to blog now.lol.tired and lazy.yup.hehhh.i'm a pig.and i wanna date a boar.i used to say hog cos i thought a hog was a boar until i was enlightened.wheeee.

friday was the day we started going for open houses.after rehearsal it was like a total a rush for all of us.we had to give out the year books and then go to the foyer to wait for the bus to go to HCI.the bus ride seemed pretty short somehow and i dont know why.lol.once we reached we were like welcomed by a whole big group of people and we split into groups for our respective tours round the school.mine was good.but hci was average only.

afetr hci, i left with malita and the rest to head for rjc.we didnt really like our guide.cos she kept asking us to go to the academic booths for no reason.and we werent exactly very into the academic part of the open houses.lol.ohh but their library is super nice.yup yup.we were like a bunch of swakus looking at everything and going waaaaa.i'm not exaggerating cos we did just that.at the humans block, we saw the statuette of Raffles.jessica made a really funny comment.she was like,"i didnt know Raffles was so fat."yup.lol.at around 345pm,peirong finally arrived with her friend.we saw sandra as well.so before we left rjc,we met up with brandon and headed for subway cos i was hungry.lol.since everyone had eaten,they were all looking at me eat my sandwich.lol.weird.at around 5 plus,jim came to join us.he brought chem tys for me to do.lol.i spent 45 mins trying to do 15 qns cos jim and i just kept talking.we said a lot of retarded stuff and we had lotsa fun.hehhh.so there u have it.4 different people from 4 different schools.with 4 different names.sitting at the same table.having the same amount of fun.lol.

saturday was graduation!wheee.i tried to cry cos i was sad.but i just couldnt cry.i define it as a high threshold for touchiness.hehhh.to it was a no-tear affair.i sorta think it was like celebration.the celebration of education.whatever that brought me through these 4 years.i love you Cedar.

after that was vjc and then chua and then yw's surprise bday party!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING! it's today actually.

i'm very lazy.so please refer to yingwah's blog for more details.hers is very detailed.i'm serious.hehhh.so yes.please pardon my laziness and pigginess but i dont care cos i'm loved for being a pig.yay!!

toodles~

muacks!

`mandalovesyou

i love you baby.hehhh.you study hard alright.dont be lazy!lol.3 more days : D.

matter

all man are matter

all man matter

and why so.

no doubt we all have weight and take up space.

but what's more important is that.

our words carry some weight

we take up space in the hearts of others. : D.

our opinions are treasured

we know that anytime, anywhere,
there's at least 1 person out there that really loves us.

toodles~

muacks!

`mandalovesyou

manda's retarded.and sick.

yes i'm sick.but i havent gotten my fever yet.man!i wanna get a fever.then i can take a legitimate rest.argh.but someone says i'm not supposed to get a fever and i'm practically crazy to want to have a fever.ohh wells.but i havent had a fever in a year.I WANT!!lol.

maths has driven me to breaking point.i am officially broken.yup.therefore i declare today, 7th october 2006, no maths day!!wheeee.so no maths for me.cos i'm not supposed to.hehhh.but i did science instead.physics and chemistry.did mr chua's papers for about 3 hours this morning after i got a morning call from brandon cos i told him to wake me up at around 845am.lol.he's like the receptionist at the hotel.calling up all the hotel guests and saying, "Good morning Sir/Madam,it's time to wake up!!"so cool right!i'm pretty sure he'll enjoy his job a lot.somehow.

anyway,so after doing the papers i had to go photocopy my papers for chuon yan and that took soooooo much time ok.it's like i took so long, i could only afford to take a 5 minute bath.yup.that was how bad a rush i was in.i had to rush for my bus you see.so i bathed,did my hair,packed my bag,wore my slippers,then rushed back into the house cos i forgot my watch and then rush out of the gate again and this time all the way to the bus stop.my bus came at about 105pm i think.very punctual. :D.

now.the past week was totally hectic,tiring,stressful and hazy.yup.lessons came non-stop.teachers refused to step out of the classrooms till the next teacher came.that also partly cos our school bell refused to ring.why why why??cos other levels having exams.argh.irritating.stress the sec4s for nothing.we had no break in between lessons.that was how packed our days had been.boooo.

the air stinks too.i hate the haze.it's disgusting.could someone please write a letter to Indonesia.ask them to stop burning down their trees or else we'd confiscate their matchsticks.yup.that should stop them.

besides the haze getting me sick and school draining my soul out of me, i realised i went out 3 times this week.monday,wednesday and thurday.

monday was lunch with jim to get his school's papers and my zen charger.i met a perv (by my own definition) at the toa payoh mrt and a really nice uncle who sells fishball noodles.i perv according to ying wah is not really a perv.not that i think that i'm hot enough for a perv to be interested in me but i've always known pervs to be really blind and so they just pick on those who look female to them.but it's like my first time meeting a perv.i couldve totally avoided him but i actually responded to him.it started like this...i was going down the escalator when this skinny,toothless,bald middle-aged man in front of me upon reaching the platform of the escalator started staring at me.i had my mp3 plugged in and i thought he was trying to say something to me since i saw his lips were moving.to me,every old person that speaks me is definitely asking for directions.hehhh.so i took off my ear piece and said,"sorry?" then he asked me which school i'm from.i got freaked out and walked away really quickly.ok.mayb he isnt really a perv but ya.nevermind then.

jim met me at bishan at 3.30pm.before he came, i sat in kfc drinking my favourite ice lemon tea doing emaths.then when he reached we went to some coffeeshop for lunch.i had fishball noodles.the uncle who served my noodles said in chinese,"young people like you have a bright future,chores like carrying your own noodles should be left to me.uncle's old and useless already,scald my hand also nevermind."that really struck me.this uncle was actually placing Singapore's future into our hands.now, do i really feel the burden to doing well.UNCLE!!you're gonna be proud of me man.hehhh.

wednesday,i went out to get some boring stuff settled.nothing to say about that.many people ponned school that day.booo!!we had double chemistry on wed okie!!!

thursday,i met brandon for lunch.i had to treat him cos i did well for my prelims.lol.yup.so we went to pastamania at cine.he said he had no appetite.so we had a combo B and a combo C.dunno whether he really had no appetite or he just didnt want to seem like a pig or something.lol.hmmm.i was super tired from school so i was super stone.he was just stoned cos it was the afternoon and it was after school.yup.we walked around town aimlessly after lunch.and i really mean aimlessly.lol.super weird.we saw many christmas trees in town though.we also saw this lady with a super muscular back.i thought it was super cool.brandon thought it was scary.lol.i also want her back muscles man!!then can scare brandon.lol.i helped an indian tourist get to CK Tang too!!yup.did a goood deed.anyway.i think ALL GUYS SHOULD OWN AT LEAST 1 PAIR OF LEVI'S JEANS.yup.dont ask me why.i just think that it's super important and necessary.

after taka,we went to heeren.we walked into HMV and i was showing brandon all the albums that i felt were good even though i've like only heard 1 track from each of them.somehow i realised that the songs i like are pretty bimbo.lol.and brandon said i look like a 20 pointer.lol.ohh wells.ohhh my favourite song now is Stars are Blind by Paris Hilton.hehhh.i just think it's super nice to listen to.wheee.

so i reached home at 515pm,slacked till 6pm,bathed,started on Maths at 630pm and did maths all the way till 2am in the morning.yup.so hiong rite!!!as a result i went to school looking super tired and stressed on friday.lol.

friday,i ended school at 215pm and went home bathe and sleep.i only slept from 245pm to like 330pm cos jim called me up.by 415 i was already telling him that i wanted to go start on maths.he refused to let me put down the phone.so we talked all the way till 445 and i was still harping on how i wanted to go do my maths.lol.by 5.he decided that he had taken a long enough break so i was then allowed to go start on my maths.lol.what a tryant.lol.so i started doing maths from 515pm all the way till 1030pm.yup.i did till i could do no more and was on the verge of crashing.lol.

ohh wells.so this has been an exciting week.yup.seriously.lol.all of you take care alright.the haze's super bad now.PSI:150.now.

toodles~

muacks!

`mandalovesyou